Things are coming together for me for the first time in what seems like a very long time. No longer do i look back and wonder what went wrong in the past year or so, i now am just looking forward to every new challenge that comes my way with every new day. After a recent discussion i had with pretty much the entirety of my immediate family, I have put down on paper some goals i would like to accomplish in the next year, three years, five years, etc... first and foremost i am planning on going back to school and getting a degree. The motivation has been lacking in recent years but I've come to the conclusion that this is the route that i want to take. I want to pursue a history degree and maybe take certifications to become a teacher (high school history teacher sounds awesome). Other smaller personal goals include: paying off my debt, living a healthier lifestyle, working more, and not making excuses to get outta the house and having some fun. this year feels like its going to rule, the fact that im finally living for myself and no one else is such a positive reinforcement of this. The home im living in is a healthy environment and has become like a second family to me, I'm making a great circle of friends out here that motivate me to become a better person, i'm actually constantly making new goals for myself, I'm branching out and trying to make new friends out here outside of my coworkers, and im trying to be more accepting of people in general (not jumping to the conclusion that everyone pretty much sucks until proven otherwise).

The positive motivation is back. lets just hope i can keep this momentum going. It's finally starting to feel like home here in Colorado - i'm getting used to the colder weather, beautiful scenery, people are awesome, and my extended family out here are keeping me afloat. this is such an awesome feeling.